Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Paul Salopek has another updated online here. It's a bit long but worth a read.

Spring break has so far been like an extended Saturday, with half of my time spent halfheartedly attempting to get work done and the other half assiduously avoiding the very thought of responsibility.  My intentions have been really good, though.  You should see my to-do list.

Friday, March 15, 2013

So I'm in my office at 9:30 at night because I managed to send my boss an email without the required attachment for the second time in a week.  Since I'm already afraid that he is starting to think I'm incompetent, or on the verge of losing my mind, I know I wouldn't have been able to sleep until I fixed the situation (Does this mean I am, in fact, on the verge of losing my mind?).

I'm at that point in the semester where I am basically counting down the days until it's done. There are responsibilities coming at me from every angle, and just like in the fall I am maybe not coping as well as I could be. It's the same old story- dishes piling up in the sink, clothes getting tighter, phone called going unreturned- but I am trying to do something every day so I might eventually make my way through the to-do list in spite of myself.

It's crazy, since I'm so tense right now, but there's a part of me that can still take the long view and appreciate why I'm doing this.  This is new for me, and it's comforting...I'm also realizing, though, that I really may not be type-A enough to spend the rest of my life doing this. I admire folks who are, and I know I will probably miss the pace of grad-school life occasionally after it's over, but I will honestly be glad to be in a position where 5:00 means I can shut off my work-brain guilt free, at least most of the time.

(Now I'll just have to wait and see if that is just the stress talking.  I'll reassess the situation where I'm feeling more useful.)